i'm so blue - 2/27/26

i'm so blue

by Kalvin Johnson

February 27, 2026

2/27/26 1:02am Zushi, Japan

So in the past, I've mentioned my mental health, and for the most part, it's been good the past few months, but that was just those months.

I'm at my worst currently, and it's been like this for probably 2-3 weeks now. For example, when I'm with my friends, I'm perfectly fine, but when I'm by myself, I just feel so bad, and I'll never be able to explain it.

I would describe it as blue or grey, I've just been so blue & grey lately, and I don't know why it gets like this. I'm not even mad anymore, I just feel so grey towards it. School doesn't make it easier either.

My grades have been doing better than ever, I have all A's and B's, but me? I've been so down and sad lately.

I want to sleep, just want to.

I just want to go back before I felt like this, because there was a time I never even grasped the concept of getting like this, because it's been so grey.

kj

Good Luck - 2/27/26

Good Luck

by Kalvin Johnson

February 27, 2026

2/27/26 2:09am Zushi, Japan

Larry's in vegas..with some chick from L.A
the best things are sevens and sex is just ok so please stay
she said just stay

cause there's a show at 11
and the drinks are all free
you can do better for yourself but not me ....
...so please stay and keep me company.

All the while thinking this is the good luck,
stays with her most of the time
takes time to make these machines work,
people are so unkind
Gets kinda nervous
used to be hard.

She takes the edges off evenings
in bedrooms and back seats in big cars.
All the while thinking this is the good luck
stays with her most of the time
it takes time to make these machines work
people are so unkind.
People are so unkind

She looks in the mirror
to make sure she's here
she keeps disappearing and dreaming of movie stars- weddings
and nothing is happening
He tries not to notice
She thinks he doesn't care.
Capture yourself in a jar and you stay there,
until you vanish
thin air

all the while thinking this is the good luck
stays with her most of the time
it takes time to make these machines work
but he aint got time while
she's riding in black cars and pokes at the sky
to see if he can make stars and

people are so unkind
people are so unkind..
People are so unkind..
People are so unkind...
people are so unkind
People are so..
unkind..