in the talking stages - 12/30/25

in the talking stages

by Kalvin Johnson

December 30, 2025

12/30/25 - 5:27pm Zushi, Japan

So, a couple of journal posts ago, I mentioned how I wanted to start talking to a girl that I rejected, but she ended up approaching me on Instagram. I'm gonna make it short because it just happened like a couple of hours ago.

Anyways, I posted on my note saying I was getting high on Instagram, I don't know why, but it was a good excuse to put "Champagne Supernova" by Oasis as my song. Sometime later, she texts me saying, "Can I have some?" Unfortunately, my nic burnt out, so I replied saying like I don't have any, but I have some regular non-mary jane nic's I can give you

She then responded with a heart emoji and some grateful emojis, don't know what the fuck it's called. I know this doesn't entirely mean she's into me, but at least we can talk a while and see what happens.

Hopefully I didn't sound like a douche, because when I hear people talk about relationships and shit, they sound so arrogant and assholey. I don't want to come off as that.

Anyways that's all folks, see ya.

kj

what's wrong with my mind? - 12/30/25

what's wrong with my mind?

by Kalvin Johnson

December 30, 2025

12/30/25 - 11:35pm Zushi, Japan

I'm only writing this because I know I probably never will, but what's actually wrong with me? I was doing so fine, but then suddenly I feel like shit. My mind has just been thinking, and my heart's been beating so fast. I don't even know how to feel. I just feel like something that I don't want to.

It makes no sense because the rest of the day I was literally so good, but then suddenly I'm thinking about things and my heart's beating. I have really high anxiety right now, and I really really really really wish it goes away, because it's worse than any other physical sickness I've ever had.

I can't sleep, but I'm going to try. Hopefully I'll be fine.

kj