being alone - 10/28/25
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kalvingjbeing alone
by Kalvin Johnson
October 28, 2025
10/28/25 - 2:29am Zushi, Japan
Being alone is a very weird thing for me. I'm not like completely lonely, I have a little friend group that I hang out with sometimes, but just being by myself, what I prefer. If I had the choice I would always choose to be alone.
I have no clue why I'm this way, I don't think it's a bad thing to be honest, alone or not, I love who I am. But there have been times where I was just completely alone. The first time I remember being completely alone was probably my first two years of high school. I had very little friends during this period, I really only had one true friend who I hung out with during the day.
But sometimes the silence is so loud in my head I feel like I have to talk, that's one of the problems of being alone. The silence of being alone makes me anxious, I feel like I have to talk, but in reality I don't. This really only occurs when I'm in the presence of other people, but when I'm completely deserted away from everyone, I can be alone.
I'm not sure what I'm saying at this point, I just wanted to express what I'm feeling right now. I'll probably get back on later. Goodbye friends.
kj
by Kalvin Johnson
October 28, 2025
10/28/25 - 2:29am Zushi, Japan
Being alone is a very weird thing for me. I'm not like completely lonely, I have a little friend group that I hang out with sometimes, but just being by myself, what I prefer. If I had the choice I would always choose to be alone.
I have no clue why I'm this way, I don't think it's a bad thing to be honest, alone or not, I love who I am. But there have been times where I was just completely alone. The first time I remember being completely alone was probably my first two years of high school. I had very little friends during this period, I really only had one true friend who I hung out with during the day.
But sometimes the silence is so loud in my head I feel like I have to talk, that's one of the problems of being alone. The silence of being alone makes me anxious, I feel like I have to talk, but in reality I don't. This really only occurs when I'm in the presence of other people, but when I'm completely deserted away from everyone, I can be alone.
I'm not sure what I'm saying at this point, I just wanted to express what I'm feeling right now. I'll probably get back on later. Goodbye friends.
kj
