love - 12/3/25
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kalvingjlove
by Kalvin Johnson
December 3, 2025
12/3/25 - 12:44am Zushi, Japan
Love obviously is something that everyone feels, if not then I just assume you're a psychopath. But for me, It's been really hard. I've dated some girls before, and please don't think I'm trying to sound like a douchebag, I didn't really deserve any of those relationships. I am kind of a loser, and I would never judge anyone based on their dating life, It's a very bitchy thing to do, and it just decreases their self esteem.
If you are judging people who can't get a girlfriend / boyfriend, stop it. It happened to me, I was like the last person in my family to get a girlfriend, and I was judged so much for never having one. It wasn't fun being teased and even if they were doing it in a joking manner, It still made me think like "What's wrong with me? Why am I so alone?" damn that sound so fucking corny, but honestly it's how I felt, I was miserable.
Anyways, I'm single now, and for people who are single just wait. Literally all you have to do is wait, I never perused any of the girls I was with, and mainly found most of my relationships with them by just doing everyday things, like meeting them in class. I never liked how some people just treat having a girlfriend as JUST having a girlfriend. For me, it was kind like an unofficial agreement of taking care of each other, and other cliché things like that.
But
For me, the relationships just never ended. I move a lot and long distance is something that will never last for me. They just faded away. It was a lot of fun skipping class, going by the dumpsters and smoking with a girl who mirrored me, but like other things, it eventually came to an end.
I don't know what saw she in me, but she always agreed with anything I said, she always supported anything I did.
A couple of months ago I rejected a girl, and now I'm kind of regretting it. I 100% agree if you think that it is my fault that I rejected this girl, and I don't hold anything against you if you think that, I feel the same way. But she is a girl who does exactly what I do, and she likes the same music, and she likes smoking, and like doing things that are unorthodox.
I don't think like it's completely done, because every time on Instagram she's always the first one to like my shit, like always the first person.
I'm such a fucking idiot, but I accept it. I'll try talking to her, but I don't know how that looks from her perspective.
kj
by Kalvin Johnson
December 3, 2025
12/3/25 - 12:44am Zushi, Japan
Love obviously is something that everyone feels, if not then I just assume you're a psychopath. But for me, It's been really hard. I've dated some girls before, and please don't think I'm trying to sound like a douchebag, I didn't really deserve any of those relationships. I am kind of a loser, and I would never judge anyone based on their dating life, It's a very bitchy thing to do, and it just decreases their self esteem.
If you are judging people who can't get a girlfriend / boyfriend, stop it. It happened to me, I was like the last person in my family to get a girlfriend, and I was judged so much for never having one. It wasn't fun being teased and even if they were doing it in a joking manner, It still made me think like "What's wrong with me? Why am I so alone?" damn that sound so fucking corny, but honestly it's how I felt, I was miserable.
Anyways, I'm single now, and for people who are single just wait. Literally all you have to do is wait, I never perused any of the girls I was with, and mainly found most of my relationships with them by just doing everyday things, like meeting them in class. I never liked how some people just treat having a girlfriend as JUST having a girlfriend. For me, it was kind like an unofficial agreement of taking care of each other, and other cliché things like that.
But
For me, the relationships just never ended. I move a lot and long distance is something that will never last for me. They just faded away. It was a lot of fun skipping class, going by the dumpsters and smoking with a girl who mirrored me, but like other things, it eventually came to an end.
I don't know what saw she in me, but she always agreed with anything I said, she always supported anything I did.
A couple of months ago I rejected a girl, and now I'm kind of regretting it. I 100% agree if you think that it is my fault that I rejected this girl, and I don't hold anything against you if you think that, I feel the same way. But she is a girl who does exactly what I do, and she likes the same music, and she likes smoking, and like doing things that are unorthodox.
I don't think like it's completely done, because every time on Instagram she's always the first one to like my shit, like always the first person.
I'm such a fucking idiot, but I accept it. I'll try talking to her, but I don't know how that looks from her perspective.
kj
